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Maci's interactions with Chal during this very time period are detailed moreso within Chal's section here on Maci's page, but suffice to say she was already handling herself poorly on a daily basis, while meanwhile Neo was beginning to happily train under the weapon-master god [[Enyalios]] to learn how to properly wield her scythe. Maci shut down completely. Though she'd known the Fated role Neo was destined to fulfill since before she was born, now the mere sight of her own daughter proudly wielding a duplicate of the very weapon that had caused Maci so much harm brought back anger, distress, and anxiety that she'd thought she'd already dealt with long ago. In truth, Maci had always been in denial of the fact that she had ''never'' actually dealt with ''any'' of the aftermath from Thanatos' hold on her, breezing past the trauma she'd endured to "deal with later," with that "later" being a time she never intended to reach.
Maci's interactions with Chal during this very time period are detailed moreso within Chal's section here on Maci's page, but suffice to say she was already handling herself poorly on a daily basis, while meanwhile Neo was beginning to happily train under the weapon-master god [[Enyalios]] to learn how to properly wield her scythe. Maci shut down completely. Though she'd known the Fated role Neo was destined to fulfill since before she was born, now the mere sight of her own daughter proudly wielding a duplicate of the very weapon that had caused Maci so much harm brought back anger, distress, and anxiety that she'd thought she'd already dealt with long ago. In truth, Maci had always been in denial of the fact that she had ''never'' actually dealt with ''any'' of the aftermath from Thanatos' hold on her, breezing past the trauma she'd endured to "deal with later.” "Later" was a time she never intended to reach.

Reeling from this tidal wave, grappling already with the concurrent situation going on with Chal's presence, Maci's relationship with Neo suddenly became laced with a tension that had not been there before, and this tension persisted over the course of most of the following year. The logical sliver of Maci's brain was no match for the overwhelming cascade of triggered anxiety that consumed her. To the alarm of her family and friends, Maci’s normally bubbly, flirty personality vanished into a ghost of herself, hollow and angry.

Though Maci’s deep-rooted anger was pointedly directed at Chal from a distance, where Neo was concerned, Maci withdrew from her, hesitant about confronting the reality of her daughter's realm and terrified of lashing out at her. Neo had never been particularly clingy and was now occupying her time with Enya's weapon training, so she happened to remain oblivious of her mom's sudden distance for several months until it became too obvious to not notice. The way Maci cowered whenever Neo tried to share the details of how she'd spent her day was unmistakable - the unsteady numbness that had replaced Maci's normally warm personality was blatant. Attempting to make her scythe less terrifying for Maci and the other palace residents who flinched from it, Neo had her scythe customized into rainbow gems and purple metal, but even still when the project was complete Maci could barely look at it.

During this time, intervention upon intervention was had. At first patiently, as Maci disintegrated, Tory held fast by her side, insisting again and again to her petulantly deaf ears that there was no way out but through. Burying the trauma of her past with Thanatos had never ''really'' worked and had now been forced to the surface, too great and overwhelming to return from whence it came. Maci ''had'' to deal with this, if not even just for herself but also to spare her daughter from being affected. Face the scythe, face Thanatos’ rehabilitated child, face Neo the predecessor. But Maci on a good day was stubborn – Maci in pieces was incapable of seeing reason.


In 2017, Tory (urged by Loki and [[Bel]]’s insistence) nearly begged her to go to therapy. Maci’s behavior was not only concerning to all those who knew and cared about her, but was now actively impeding progress being made through Chal’s rehabilitation and Neo’s own burgeoning death goddess training. Drawing from the half of her that had receded into anger, Maci reacted to this plea explosively - again. Tory was pregnant at this time with Epi's twins [[Skio]] and [[Kora]], and had no energy to argue with her ''again'' about doing the right thing to help herself and everyone else, nor the patience to enable her avoidance of dealing with this - ''again.'' When Maci's tantrum, which had culminated in a full screaming argument between two short-tempered deities, was complete, she stormed away to sulk and hide in the main palace. Tory, at his furious wits end after almost two years of this, let her go after Loki and Epi confirmed she was fine.
Reeling from this tidal wave, grappling already with the concurrent situation going on with Chal's presence, Maci's relationship with Neo suddenly became laced with a tension that had not been there before, and this tension persisted over the course of the following year. The logical sliver of Maci's brain was no match for the overwhelming cascade of triggered anxiety that consumed her, and against any better judgments Maci found herself shut down and hollow, a bitter ghost of herself. Her deep-rooted anger was directed at Chal from a distance - but where Neo was concerned, Maci withdrew from her, hesitant about confronting the reality of her daughter's realm and terrified of lashing out at her. Neo had never been particularly clingy and was now occupying her time with Enya's weapon training, so she happened to remain oblivious of her mom's sudden distance for about six months until she began to pick up on what was going on behind the scenes, barely hidden from Neo's eyes. The way Maci cowered whenever Neo tried to share the details of how she'd spent her day was unmistakable - the cold numbness that had replaced Maci's normally warm personality was blatant. In an attempt to make her scythe less terrifying, Neo requested that Tory stylize it, bedazzling its handle in rainbow gems to separate it from Thanatos' black-handled scythe of legacy. When the project was complete, Maci would barely look at it. Some months later, with Maci still withdrawing deeper into herself, Neo commissioned Loki to turn the scythe's blade bright purple, another attempt to lessen the comparison. Getting Maci to see the transformation was like pulling teeth - and it did not restore her to her former neatly compartmentalized but functioning self.


Neither of them had reached a resolution to this last argument when Neo, age-10-turning-11 at the time, came to Tory and Maci in tears - a rare sight for Neo, who was often stoic and calm. These tears and this breakdown from her daughter was the catalyst at last for Maci to snap to some sort of sense. Neo had never cried quite as hard as she had that night, at least not since she'd been really little, and Maci was gutted with the realization that Neo had come to know she herself was a source of Maci's disintegration. Maci agreed to speak at last to [[Epione]], the Olympian therapist who had [[Vrykolakas|helped Epi the previous year]], about her anxiety over Neo's scythe and all of the re-opened trauma that had come about as a result.
During this time, intervention upon intervention was had. Patiently as Maci disintegrated, Tory held fast by her side, but insisted again and again to her stubborn and petulantly deaf ears that there was no way out but through. Burying the trauma of her past with Thanatos had never ''really'' worked and had now been forced to the surface, too great and overwhelming to return from whence it came. Maci ''had'' to deal with this.


Though Maci's therapy journey to make amends with Chal proved to be an ongoing challenge beyond this time period, opening up to Epione helped repair the fraying edges of her and Neo's relationship. Maci had agreed to see her after being shocked by Neo's breakdown, but admitted in her own words during her first sessions with Epione that the reasons she was there amounted basically to making her daughter and her husband happy. Step one was coming to terms with wanting to heal for her own sake and not someone else's - step two was for Maci to come to terms with what a "healed" version of herself could even look like. Thanatos and his legacy had inflicted so much upon her early life that now, face to face with assessing the damage done, Maci was terrified of who she would be be if that was all stripped away from her. Slowly, as Maci replayed both in words and [[memory theater]] what she had survived through long, long ago, Maci began to make peace with the notion that moving past it all - changing - didn't mean changing into something unrecognizable.
For as long as possible, she refused.


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